Christian recording artists Nichole Nordemann has this song called “Every Season” about seeing God in every season of your life. It really spoke to me a few years back when it came out and in my prayer time today, it just popped into my head. Specifically this lyric:
And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter
I think that the past six months have been a time of winter in my life. With events as obvious as the death of my dad and something a little more subtle like the loss of a life without a child. Recently, we’ve had this massive transition in our church and transition can be a winter-like period as well. Some people have lost their jobs and the people still left at the church are mourning the loss of a friend or pastor who is moving on.
It’s so easy to sit back and see God pruning other people around you. “Oh yea, they’re being pruned.” “Oh man, would you look at that… the church is being pruned.” “I hope everyone embraces the pruning cause it’s such a healthy thing…” All of these things are easy to say, until you realize the God has been pruning you all along and He’s not done yet. Why hadn’t I noticed? Why did I think I was exempt from it all?
The real question is, can I still see God in all of it? Can I see God in the death of my dad? Can I see God in giving up my comfortable behavior in order to be the mom my son needs? Can I see God in change? Can I see God in death, whether physical or spiritual?
I pray that I can.
Posted by Power to recover « revelation is too strong a word on June 8, 2008 at 7:19 am
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